Dear God, this is so heart wrenching. You are brave to stand up to them. Your account gives everyone important insight into the cult and how very difficult it is for people to extricate themselves. Your story makes me see what it must have been like for Beck or Neil Gaiman. Gaiman grew up in Scientology, was declared ?Clear? in 1978, became a class VIII auditor running the Birmingham Org. Although declared suppressive in 1983 with his father David Gaiman, by 1988 Neil Gaiman was listed as completing three Scientology courses, so he must have been pulled back in. Scientologists often declare people suppressive but revoke the declare when they get in line. Neil?s father is a high-ranking scientologist (OT VIII) and his sister, Claire Edwards, is a main executive in Scientology Missions International the recruiting end of Scientology. He would have to grow some balls to get out of that situation. Maybe the light you are shining and your bravery will lead others out of the dark.